The Wall

So lately I've been in a huuuuuge state of writer's block. This has been my worst enemy. I never thought it would happen. I mean, what's the big deal? I should just write. What ever I think of, I should write it. But no, it does not work that way. I can't do it.
Today, Carli decided to do a creativity meditation and I sat in on it with her. At one point, the lady with the soothing voice started talking about letting you fears and anxieties about your creativeness go. Just being free to create. At this point my heart began to pound and my previously serene mind went into a frenzy. I literally could not let go of the anxieties of my writing. It was like I had hit a wall in my mind and I was freaking out trying to get over it. It is my mind for Pete's sake (poor Pete). I reasoned through and dismissed every fear I could think of and still I could not allow myself to be free to write. If any of you, ANY of you have any advice, I will take it with grace. I need to write. It's what I love to do.